It’s not a shadow
It’s not a dream
More like a monster –
That version of me

I sip the poison
It flows through my veins
Reminding my heart
How I crave you again

So the monster takes over
And I do these things
I hurt myself all over again
It’s embarrassing

And I don’t get embarrassed
I don’t have regrets
But then pain meets poison
They become best friends

So I dialed your number
Saying everything, but nothing at all
I apologize for being a monster
It wasn’t me – it was alcohol

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