Here I am
Thinking of you
Again
Wishing you’d have
Saved me
From him
Had you been here
In my life
He wouldn’t have
Here I am
Wishing for you
Wanting us back
This is my plea
My last cry
For help
Please show me
Say something –
Reach out
This is my
Final cry
For you
Show me somehow
Say anything –
Soon.
Just in case you forgot
I’m still right here.
Missing you –
Missing us,
Whatever we were.
Feeling you
Forgetting me.
I just wish you knew,
I just want you.
And I want you –
To be happy.
Then it hit me –
A truth I wasn’t ready for
Like the sea
Crashing against the cliffs at shore
Love comes in waves –
On its own terms and in its own time
I was trying too hard
To control the power of the tide
It’s not a shadow
It’s not a dream
More like a monster –
That version of me
I sip the poison
It flows through my veins
Reminding my heart
How I crave you again
So the monster takes over
And I do these things
I hurt myself all over again
It’s embarrassing
And I don’t get embarrassed
I don’t have regrets
But then pain meets poison
They become best friends
So I dialed your number
Saying everything, but nothing at all
I apologize for being a monster
It wasn’t me – it was alcohol
You can’t fix her,
No one can.
It’s not your fault
You’re just one man.
She tried to play,
Tried to pretend
The damage is done
No making amends.
Walk away now –
Don’t look in the rearview.
You can’t fix her
You’re not super glue.
She’s far past
The lost and found.
There’s no repairing
What’s long gone now.
The Dalema 