For him it was purely physical;
for her it would never be enough.
Because if she has to work so hard for her body,
why doesn’t he?
A few texts and she’s giving it to him
like he’s earned it.
We accept the love we think we deserve,
and she finally knows
she deserves better.
You reminded me of so many things:
butterflies
smiling until it hurts
long, meaningful conversations
being the first thought on someone’s mind
the excitement of planning ahead
happiness
getting lost in a kiss
trust.
But of all the things you reminded me of,
I never thought you would remind me:
how it feels to
break
left in pieces
feel empty and unwanted
to be –
Heartbroken.
A date with old bourbon, a friend from Kentucky
It’s been a long time since he’s said hello
Takeout Chinese food and fortune cookies
The candles are lit and the lights are down low
I’ll wear your hoodie ’till I wear out your scent
I’ve locked myself in until the feelings are gone
A weekend full of erasing – it’s time to forget
No denying what I should’ve known all along
You snuck into my life like a whispered secret
An unexpected song with a catchy melody
I really thought that we were going to make it
You unlocked my heart without having a key
I showed you parts of me no one has seen
You stole my heart by getting to know my soul
I trusted you without you having to ask me
The sound of your laugh made me lose control
I’ll wear your hoodie ’till I wear out your scent
I’ve locked myself in until the feelings are gone
A weekend full of erasing – it’s time to forget
No denying what I should’ve known all along
You were everything I never knew I wanted
Who and what I needed when I needed you most
It’s hard to believe all that has been forgotten
You broke my walls down then decided to go
So as I sit here with all I have left of you –
A hoodie, dried flowers and texts of admiration
I’ll remember what you once felt, too –
Before you stopped feeling our connection
I’ll wear your hoodie ’till I wear out your scent
I’ve locked myself in until the feelings are gone
A weekend full of erasing – it’s time to forget
No denying what I should’ve known all along
My friend, old bourbon, is starting to pinch me
He told me all the things I needed to hear
He showed me loving you is an addiction
Worse than pain pills, gambling, sex or beer
I guess there’s no understanding what happened
No moment or words I should have changed
I’m just left with the ‘what-could-have-been’s
And a heart filled with emptiness and pain
So I’ll wear your hoodie ’till I wear out your scent
I’ve locked myself in until the feelings are gone
A weekend full of erasing – it’s time to forget
No denying what I should’ve known all along
The sunrise has peaked through my windows
The weekend has passed, my feelings stayed
I’ve unlocked my door, your memory won’t go
Even Kentucky bourbon can’t drink you away
We didn’t have a song, or a restaurant or a favorite place to visit.
We didn’t have a movie or a band that we loved to see –
We had a day of the week.
I can’t change the station, avoid the cuisine or the street it’s on.
I can’t avoid the channel or the concerts played.
No matter how busy I stay or how many plans I make, I have to get through ‘our day’.
And the worst and most ironic part?
No matter what I do or tell myself, no matter how much time goes by –
Our day will always end with ‘y’.
– Danyle L. M. 5/9/16
I keep reading
Those last texts you sent me
So I can remember
Why you said we cannot be
But what we were
Those plans we made
We didn’t act them out
You wouldn’t press play
And I can’t help
But think to myself
That somewhere, someday
You’ll think to yourself
‘I’ve missed her
Every day since I left –
She’s a hard woman to leave
And impossible to forget’
Someone will ask
‘Well, why did you go?’
And you’ll tell them,
‘I guess I don’t know’
That’s when it will hurt
That’s when you will see
You lost a part of you
When you walked away from me
– Danyle L. M. 5/7/16
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