You can’t say you’re sorry
For breaking my heart
Do it all over –
Tear me apart
Changed behavior
Is the best apology
You say you’re sorry
Then your actions repeat
You don’t see it but
It’s blinding me
I’m the one who feels it
You chuck it up as comedy
You can’t say you’re sorry
But do the same thing again
Keep it up baby
The next sorry’s our end.
You could be my worst enemy
You could be my best friend
You could be the love of my life
You could be the person who ripped my heart out
You could be the first person to call me fat
You could be the last person to say I’m beautiful
You could be the person who rear-ended me and destroyed my neck and back
You could be the person who let me in front of you in rush hour traffic
You could be the person who voted for someone who stands for everything I’m against
You could be the person who granted my healthcare benefits
You could be the reason I get a lower salary
You could be the reason I have a job
At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter who you are
I will always wish you the best and show you kindness
– The Dalema. January 15, 2021.
No ones supposed to pay for the past
It ended because it wasn’t built to last
You can’t hold grudges, ask for repayment
You built the first floor before the ground pavement
I’ve paid for her sins, I’ve begged for her forgiveness
This was supposed to be forever not built on resentment
I’m not her and she isn’t me
Can’t you see we are meant to be?
But I’ll stand strong, I know my worth
She broke you but I can’t pay for the hurt
I’ve done enough and proved that I’m worthy
I can’t prove anymore it just isn’t in me
Until you see the truth that I’m not her
I’ll lock the door and cry through the hurt
If you walk away I’ll know you were scared
Almost three years and the worth wasn’t there
Who she was it isn’t me
I can’t pay for her sins
This was supposed to be the beginning
It feels like the end.
⁃ The Dalema. 8/27/20
The way you make me coffee
And take the dogs outside
The way you wake me up
When you turn on our light
The way you give me shit
When I talk about my feelings
The way you resist
When I say to tell me sweet things
The way you tell me no
When I’m asking for too much
The way you calm my nerves
With just a single touch
The way you fall asleep
Even if I’m still talking
The way you say “what now”
When I ask how much you love me
The way you late night snack
When you think that I don’t notice
The way you change the subject
By pretending to lose focus
The way you tell a story
Without getting to the point
The way you don’t forget
To say “love you, goodnight”
The way you make me mad
But then you make me laugh
The way you buy me lobster
And end up eating half
The way you let me know
You’ll catch me when I fall
I love the way you love me
It’s my favorite love of all
– The Dalema. March 13, 2020.
I will never be
A southern skinny blonde
I will never be
Too shy to say you’re wrong
I will never be
The woman without an opinion
I will never be
Dreaming without you in them
I will never be
Your first marriage choice
I will never be
Someone who’s been divorced
I will never be
The mother of your first child
I will never be
A heart that’s running wild
I will never be
Ok with no emotions
I will never be
The women that you’ve known
I will never be
Someone who leaves & deserts you
I will never be
Her.
⁃ The Dalema. February 19, 2020.
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